She got this prestigious ability to endure silently while holding everyone else up. She has been doing this since she realized that I moved out permanently. I had to go home couple of times for some harsh reasons which I'm not gonna mention here. Each time I went there I realized why things went wrong. To get this insight you've got to go out in the society alone and experience it. My parents never had the chance to understand this when they were kids. They followed the normal social system of their time. So they are afraid of seeing their children taking risks by doing something apart from the current social system. This is the average Sri Lankan Family psychology. Can't blame anyone on that since doing what you like is not a human need.
But if I ever become a dad. My prime goal would be to raise a child who is comfortable enough to leave me and soar on his/her own when the time comes. If the kid is ready for that by 18, my job is done! This is just how I think. And I'm always ready for healthy arguments.
But if I ever become a dad. My prime goal would be to raise a child who is comfortable enough to leave me and soar on his/her own when the time comes. If the kid is ready for that by 18, my job is done! This is just how I think. And I'm always ready for healthy arguments.
Adventures must start running away from home! But when you are away, you become a different person. The things you see, things you hear, situations you go through, friends you hangout with, and the girls you fall for mould you in to someone else. I've read so many books, articles, and sayings on those topics. From the knowledge I gained I can tell you this, How you react to them makes you unique. That's where you pop out in the society. Then you get the freedom and the ability to grow alone.
Being back at home after this long made me realize how messed up I was before and how above five facts made me different after leaving!
Below here I will mention couple of things I noticed and the things I felt,
I started Saying sorry and thank you at every possible moment.
Less attachment to food. but more water! I only eat when I'm hungry.
I'm unable to start conversations which satisfies others. I used to do this so well. Every time I start a convo the content I'm talking gets so raw and it ends up as an advice. I repeatedly start my sentences with "When I was in" and "back then".
I realized my mother is my foundation. I have all the basic human qualities, habits and errors same as hers. I've missed love and I realized the meaning of the word "unconditional".
She never expects anything.
Understood the difference of knowing everything about me and knowing only the romantic side.
I wonder how I'm gonna feel when I read this in another 3 or 4 years.
Signing out!
Signing out!
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